
We had to have our bags packed and in front of our hotel rooms by 8:30 AM for a noon flight. The hotel took our locked luggage to the airport ahead of us and checked it all the way to Guangzhou for us. It was actually really convenient, except for the fact that I was exhausted and I had to pack when I would much rather have been sleeping. Makena was still following her course of antibiotics. Jack was now coughing again and blowing his nose and all I could think about was how my kids were going to be able to pressurize or depressurize on the 1.5 hour flight to Guangzhou.

This is day two in Guangzou and both my children are now officially on antibiotics. I called the doctor in to look at Jack's ears and check Makena's lungs to make sure they were clear. They were. To find this out cost me 100 Yuen, or $13 US.
In retrospect, the only thing that caught me off guard, was me. As we were boarding the plane I started crying. It came out of nowhere. I was crying for Makena and the thought that I was taking her away from the place she was born. I was crying for her biological mom and I was crying for the homesickness Makena would probably never know.
I locked eyes with this pregnant woman in the airport on the way to the gate and I think that's what probably set it off. I wondered if it was her first pregnancy, whether it wasn't, whether she was from another town and had flown to Chongqing to have the baby...all these thoughts ran through my head and then to my mother who would never know Makena, just as she never got to meet Jack, who is named after her.
After I calmed down, I came to the conclusion that:
A) I'm either going through PMS,
B) Menopause or
C) I'm just whack or
D) All of the above.
Don't answer that.

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